A funny thing happened to me as I was revisiting my time teachng the shipbuilders. In addition to feeling happy, proud, and nostalgic I also felt a bit disappointed. The main reason for my disappointment was because I don’t think that I will be able to capture the same magic that I did then and there.
At that time in 2005 I was relatively fresh off my CELTA and had just about 4 year’s teaching experience. I was full of energy and passion. Perhaps even more importantly, I was full of conviction in my beliefs.
Now, while I am sure I am much better at articulating and examing my beliefs, I am much less convinced that they are “right.”
I don’t want to say that I was a better or more effective teacher 7 years ago. However, I cannot shake the feeling that this confidence in myself, my teaching, and my beliefs were all very helpful things with the shipbuilders back in 2005.
I am willing to admit that my memory could be playing tricks on me and that it was not nearly as successful of an experience as I want to recall. I am happy to admit that my students could possibly have made even more progress with a modified/modern version of me. I am happy to say that the the knowledge, skills, attitude and awareness that I have accumulated in the past 7 years could have been of some benefit to me in that and other teaching situations.
Yet, I am still somehow pretty convinced that Mike circa 2005 was a better match and thus a “better teacher” for that particular group of learners.
I wonder if anyone out there has a similar experience or similar thoughts and feelings.